Noël Z

“I suppose at one time in my life I might have had any number of stories, but now there is no other. This is the only story I will ever be able to tell.”
― Donna Tartt, The Secret History

“I won’t lie this plague of gratitude is hard bear / I was comfortable in my native pessimism / not this spun-sugar fantasy / last night I made actual cake / there were no worms in the flour no bloody whirls in the eggs / I always wanted to be a saint / but I thought I’d be one of the miserable ones / sainted by pain / burnt alive inside a brazen bull / instead I weep openly at obnoxious beauty / cello music comes in from blocks away and I lose it completely / is there a word for these fits of incomprehensible delight / I said it last night when my mouth was full of cake”
― Kaveh Akbar

“‎You're not the same as you were before," he said. You were much more... muchier... you've lost your muchness.”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland / Through the Looking-Glass

“What the mind cannot accept, the heart can finally never adore.”
― John Shelby Spong