Bengisu

“Isn't it funny? How the cold numbs everything but grief.
If we could light up the room with pain,

we'd be such a glorious fire.”
― Ada Limon, Bright Dead Things

“I thought I could die and be happy and be humbled
by luck of a first love and a first full-fledged fuck.”
― Ada Limon, Bright Dead Things

“I used to pretend a lot. I'm very good at it.

I bought a creamy corn-colored rotary phone
and I was so fabulous.

I'd sit and tell you about my phone, but the truth was
it didn't work very well. It made me not want to talk to anyone,
but rather be in a picture, holding the phone, pretending to talk.

That's not unlike some of the people I have claimed to love.

I'd rather tell you about them, stranger, in hot words
than tug the cold satellites closer for warmth.”
― Ada Limon, Bright Dead Things

“Surely, mere physical fatigue could not produce a world so black, an outlook so dismal, a cowardice that struck with such sudden hopelessness at the very roots of life?”
― Algernon Blackwood, The Occupant of the Room