Cinemarias

“Then I realized that it's not that I want to be old — it's not a particular age I'm longing for, but a certain way of life, one that's reserved for old age, perhaps. It involves not taking action, but if you do, doing it slowly, as if it's not the result of the action that matters, but the actual movement. It means watching the ebb and flow of time, but no longer having the courage to go with the tide, or against it. It means ignoring time, as if it were just a naive advertisement for something else that's truly desirable, and doing nothing, just counting the strokes of the living-room clock, the pit-a-pat of pigeon's feet on the windowsill, and the beats of your heart— and the immediately forgetting them all. It means not longing or thirsting for anything—”
― Olga Tokarczuk, House of Day, House of Night