Ch4os

“love you."
he says before he steps out the front door.

"love you more."
i say to myself, standing in the kitchen.
after. he shuts the door in my face.

there's a difference.
i will love him behind closed doors.

and he can't love me
while they are still open.”
― Hayley Grace

“sometimes we think we are unloveable
but we are really just asking the wrong people to love us”
― Hayley Grace, save me an orange

“I am trying to see things in perspective. My dog wants a bite of my peanut butter chocolate chip bagel. I know she cannot have this, because chocolate makes dogs very sick. My dog does not understand this. She pouts and wraps herself around my leg like a scarf and purrs and tries to convince me to give her just a tiny bit. When I do not give in, she eventually gives up and lays in the corner, under the piano, drooping and sad. I hope the universe has my best interest in mind like I have my dog’s. When I want something with my whole being, and the universe withholds it from me, I hope the universe thinks to herself: "Silly girl. She thinks this is what she wants, but she does not understand how it will hurt.”
― Blythe Baird

“Killing yourself slowly is still killing yourself. Wanting to die is not the same as wanting to come home. Recovery is hard work. Not wanting to die is hard work.”
― Blythe Baird, Give Me A God I Can Relate To