Jeng Medrano

“I guess that sometimes it just takes a long walk through the darkness, a long walk through the darkest shadows and corners of your soul to realize that those are a part of you as well, that you've created through your experiences and thoughts those parts within yourself and as much as you can choose to fear them and repress them, they will require your attention one day, they will need your care and acceptance before you can clean them away and turn the lights on. For you refuse to shine the light on something that is imperfect, because you fear judgement and rejection, but you can always choose to look towards the light as the only source of true beauty and love that can help you in the cleaning process. Healing, after a long time of struggle and mess is a complex process, but a necessary one nevertheless. We are so overwhelmed by the amount of work it requires that we so often choose to run away from the light, hide in our dark corner and hope that we will never be found, hope that we will never be seen, or desperately look outwards for that love and compassion that we can no longer find within ourselves, for our soul's light no longer shines as it used to. And sometimes we just find those people that can see the light beneath all that dust and darkness that's been pilled up, those kind of light workers that understand our broken souls and manage to pick us up and see the beauty within us, when we find it so hard to see it ourselves. Sometimes I get so tired of separation, of division, of groups and different religions and belief systems. Even if you do find the truth, once you've put it into words, books and rules it already becomes distorted by the mind into something that is no longer truth. So I no longer hope for understanding, no longer hope for the opinion of a judgemental mind, but I hope to find the words that touch the soul before the mind, I hope to find the touch that warms the heart from deep inside, and hope to find that far away abandoned part of me which I've left behind.”
― Virgil Kalyana Mittata Iordache

“Love is scary: it changes; it can go away. That's part of the risk.”
― jenny han , To All the Boys I've Loved Before

“Thoughts on Letting Go

It's possible to move on from someone even if your heart refuses to let go. And it's not something you need to consciously do. It will just happen gradually over time. The ache will always be there, but the intensity will fade, and you'll find other beautiful things to fill your days with.”
― Lang Leav, Sea of Strangers

“Pickup is a linear process: Capture the imagination first
and the heart next. Interest plus attraction plus seduction equals sex.”
― Neil Strauss, The Game: Penetrating the Secret Society of Pickup Artists