Mei Ee

“I tell myself that I want to live a happy life, and that the circumstances for happiness just haven't arisen. But what if that's not true? What if I'm the one who can't let myself be happy? Because I'm scared, or I prefer to wallow in self-pity, or I don't believe I deserve good things, or some other reason. Whenever something good happens to me I always find myself thinking: I wonder how long it will be until this turns out badly. And I almost want the worst to happen sooner, sooner rather than later, and if possibile straight away, so at least I don't have to feel anxious about it anymore.”
― Sally Rooney, Beautiful World, Where Are You

“It was a relief and a horror to be known so perfectly”
― Micah Nemerever, These Violent Delights

“All along it had been Paul who was meant to plead for mercy. The real violence was in how gentle Julian was—how near his reassurances
came to absolution while stopping just short of granting it.”
― Micah Nemerever, These Violent Delights

“I don't ask you to love me always like this, but I ask you to remember. Somewhere inside me there'll always be the person I am tonight”
― F. Scott Fitzgerald, Tender Is the Night