Maddy

“For so long now I have waited to get back to baseline and I have to go to exactly the same point from which I originally set out on these travels. My criterion for healing was to be able to go right where I left off, like midpage in a novel. I have aited and waited, but I'm still not back to that page. Kay and Lew try to tell me, in their own gentle ways, to stop waiting. I think they're trying to tell me that i'm never going to get that page. That I'm in an entirely new book now, most of it unwritten”
― Martha Manning, Undercurrents: A Life Beneath the Surface

“I didn’t want to die because I hated myself; I wanted to die because I loved myself enough to want this pain to end.”
― Martha Manning, Undercurrents: A Life Beneath the Surface

“Realize that you can’t let the feelings of others make you live less.”
― Arden Rose, Almost Adulting: All You Need to Know to Get It Together

“The mistake is to assume that rulers who came to power through institutions cannot change or destroy those very institutions--even when that is exactly what they have announced that they will do. Revolutionaries sometimes do intend to destroy institutions all at once. This was the approach of the Russian Bolsheviks. Sometimes institutions are deprived of vitality and function, turned into a simulacrum of what they once were, so that they gird the new order rather than resisting it.”
― Timothy Snyder, On Tyranny: Twenty Lessons from the Twentieth Century