Hannah

“I knew that he had decided that Caleb was right, that he was disgusting, that he had, somehow, deserved what had happened to him.”
― Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

“There were two ways of forgetting. For many years, he had envisioned (unimaginatively) a vault, and at the end of the day, he would gather the images and sequences and words that he didn’t want to think about again and open the heavy steel door only enough to hurry them inside, closing it quickly and tightly. But this method wasn’t effective: the memories seeped out anyway. The important thing, he came to realize, was to eliminate them, not just to store them. So he had invented some solutions. For small memories—little slights, insults—you relived them again and again until they were neutralized, until they became near meaningless with repetition, or until you could believe that they were something that had happened to someone else and you had just heard about it. For larger memories, you held the scene in your head like a film strip, and then you began to erase it, frame by frame. Neither method was easy: you couldn’t stop in the middle of your erasing and examine what you were looking at, for example; you couldn’t start scrolling through parts of it and hope you wouldn’t get ensnared in the details of what had happened, because you of course would. You had to work at it every night, until it was completely gone. Though they never disappeared completely, of course.”
― Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

“Piggy once more was the centre of social derision so that everyone felt cheerful and normal.”
― William Golding, Lord of the Flies

“A wise man once said, it’s not the despair that destroys you, it’s the hope.”
― K.J. Parker, Sixteen Ways to Defend a Walled City