“I am a sick man. ... I am a spiteful man. I am an unattractive man. I believe my liver is diseased. However, I know nothing at all about my disease, and do not know for certain what ails me. I don't consult a doctor for it, and never have, though I have a respect for medicine and doctors. Besides, I am extremely superstitious, sufficiently so to respect medicine, anyway (I am well-educated enough not to be superstitious, but I am superstitious). No, I refuse to consult a doctor from spite. That you probably will not understand. Well, I understand it, though. Of course, I can't explain who it is precisely that I am mortifying in this case by my spite: I am perfectly well aware that I cannot "pay out" the doctors by not consulting them; I know better than anyone that by all this I am only injuring myself and no one else. But still, if I don't consult a doctor it is from spite. My liver is bad, well--let it get worse!
I have been going on like that for a long time--twenty years. Now I am forty. I used to be in the government service, but am no longer. I was a spiteful official. I was rude and took pleasure in being so. I did not take bribes, you see, so I was bound to find a recompense in that, at least. (A poor jest, but I will not scratch it out. I wrote it thinking it would sound very witty; but now that I have seen myself that I only wanted to show off in a despicable way, I will not scratch it out on purpose!)”
― Notes from Underground, White Nights, The Dream of a Ridiculous Man, and Selections from The House of the Dead
I have been going on like that for a long time--twenty years. Now I am forty. I used to be in the government service, but am no longer. I was a spiteful official. I was rude and took pleasure in being so. I did not take bribes, you see, so I was bound to find a recompense in that, at least. (A poor jest, but I will not scratch it out. I wrote it thinking it would sound very witty; but now that I have seen myself that I only wanted to show off in a despicable way, I will not scratch it out on purpose!)”
― Notes from Underground, White Nights, The Dream of a Ridiculous Man, and Selections from The House of the Dead
“Men know that women are an overmatch for them, and therefore they choose the weakest or the most ignorant. If they did not think so, they never could be afraid of women knowing as much as themselves.”
― A Journey to the Western Islands of Scotland and The Journal of a Tour to the Hebrides
― A Journey to the Western Islands of Scotland and The Journal of a Tour to the Hebrides
“Let me tell you something my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane.”
― Different Seasons
― Different Seasons
“Every generation imagines itself to be more intelligent than the one that went before it, and wiser than the one that comes after it.”
―
―
“Power is in tearing human minds to pieces and putting them together again in new shapes of your own choosing.”
― 1984
― 1984
Darius’s 2024 Year in Books
Take a look at Darius’s Year in Books, including some fun facts about their reading.
Darius hasn't connected with his friends on Goodreads, yet.
Favorite Genres
Polls voted on by Darius
Lists liked by Darius













