Aseel

“I couldn’t trust my own emotions. Which emotional reactions were justified, if any? And which ones were tainted by the mental illness of BPD? I found myself fiercely guarding and limiting my emotional reactions, chastising myself for possible distortions and motivations. People who had known me years ago would barely recognize me now. I had become quiet and withdrawn in social settings, no longer the life of the party. After all, how could I know if my boisterous humor were spontaneous or just a borderline desire to be the center of attention? I could no longer trust any of my heart felt beliefs and opinions on politics, religion, or life. The debate queen had withered. I found myself looking at every single side of an issue unable to come to any conclusions for fear they might be tainted. My lifelong ability to be assertive had turned into a constant state of passivity.”
― Rachel Reiland, Get Me Out of Here: My Recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder

“الفتن التي تتخفى وراء قناع الدين تجارة رائجة جدًا في عصور التراجع الفكري للمجتمعات”
― ابن خلدون

“I have the true feeling of myself only when I am unbearably unhappy.”
― Franz Kafka

“لماذا يظن كل شخص فى هذا العالم أن وضعه بالذات هو وضع مختلف؟
هل يريد ابن آدم أن يتميز عن سواه من بني آدم حتى فى الخسران؟
هل هى أنانية الأنا التى لا نستطيع التخلص منها؟”
― مريد البرغوثي, رأيت رام الله