Rachel

“Sometimes because, as hideous as this sounds to say, being loved is a necessary prerequisite for wanting to live but it is not sufficient on its own.”
― Anna Mehler Paperny, Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me: Depression in the First Person

“Me as a woman liking myself, is an act of social defiance!”
― Hannah Witton

“He preferred smart questions to smart answers.”
― Yoko Ogawa, The Housekeeper and the Professor

“One of the first things mental health practitioners tell you after you try to die is that your recent attempt is not selfish, not a misery you’ve inflicted on those you love most, but a fatal final symptom of a disease that’s destroying you. Which, sure. Fine. But seeing my younger brother’s face in that psych ward after he’d flown in from his first weeks of law school convinced me I deserved to die in the most torturous way imaginable. Loving people so much it hurts doesn’t necessarily negate the need to die; it just makes you hate yourself more for all the pain you cause, makes you feel your death would be a gift.”
― Anna Mehler Paperny, Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me: Depression in the First Person