Ellie

“The decisions that we're making and not making, the things we can control and the things we can't -- they are huge. And people can choose to forget how it was for them, or they can remember. They can half-listen to us and roll their eyes when we leave because we are young and we have no fucking clue what we're doing. Or they can actually listen, and they can think about themselves when they were like us, and maybe we can bring some pieces of then back.' And now my eyes are welling up, my hands are trembling. 'Because we lose it,' I say. 'We grow up and we lose ourselves.”
― Nina LaCour and David Levithan

“You're becoming. You're in the process of becoming. You just don't know what yet.
That felt right. It felt okay to stop there, for now, as we walked through the future.”
― David Levithan, You Know Me Well

“I swore I wouldn't check my phone, and now that I've broken that vow it's like the other ones are null and void. Like any addict, I've built my floodgates out of tissue paper.”
― David Levithan, You Know Me Well

“She found a small spot where the grass was soft and dry and lay down, wondering how many years it had been since she had lain on soft grass to be alone to think. Around her the trees and wild flowers, with that oddly courteous air of natural things suddenly interrupted in their pressing occupations of growing and dying, turned towards her with attention, as though, dull and imperceptive as she was, it was still necessary for them to be gentle to a creature so unfortunate as not to be rooted in the ground, forced to go from one place to another, heart-breakingly mobile. Idly Eleanor picked a wild daisy, which died in her fingers, and, lying on the grass, looked up into its dead face. There was nothing in her mind beyond an overwhelming wild happiness. She pulled at the daisy, and wondered, smiling at herself, What am I going to do? What am I going to do?”
― Shirley Jackson, The Haunting of Hill House