Jessi

“I have learned that feeling empty sometimes is okay. I’ve got to refill myself with something at some point. Art, love, solitude, random acts of kindness. I really don’t know, but that’s what makes being whole again so exciting.”
― Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction

“That’s how we stay young nowadays:

Chasing down bottles
of pills, jumping off bridges,
slicing up our bodies and an idealized
vision of being skinny enough.”
― Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction

“June 16, 2018

I feel lovely, but it’s just the drugs. But sometimes I think that maybe it isn’t just the drugs? Maybe these feelings are inside of us all along, and the drugs find them. Maybe that’s why some people choose to be junkies because they choose to believe that they’re worthy of happiness. And maybe some of us like the pain so much that we numb it in order for us to really understand it. To put these suicidal feelings to sleep and fall in love with the way we fall in love with the stars within us. I think self-destruction is the most addictive thing. There’s something very powerful and magical about it.”
― Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction

“i overthink.
i overlove.
i over feel.

i am the sea
or i am nothing.”
― Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction