Konstantina

“Αηδίες—ο χρόνος έγινε για να κυλάει,
οι έρωτες για να τελειώνουν,
η ζωή για να πηγαίνει στο διάολο
κι εγώ για να διασχίζω το Άπειρο με το μεγάλο διασκελισμό ενός μαθηματικού υπολογισμού,
μονάχα όποιος τα διψάει όλα
μπορεί να με προφτάσει,
ό,τι ζήσαμε
χάνεται,
γκρεμίζεται μέσα στο σάπιο οισοφάγο του χρόνου
και μόνο καμμιά φορά,
τις νύχτες,
θλιβερό γερασμένο μηρυκαστικό τ’ αναμασάει η ξεδοντιασμένη μνήμη,
όσα δε ζήσαμε
αυτά μας ανήκουν—”
― Τάσος Λειβαδίτης, 25η Ραψωδία της Οδύσσειας

“He paused, then, I behind him, arms locked around the powerful ribs, fingers caressing him. To lie with him, to lie with him, burning forgetful in the delicious animal fire. Locked first upright, thighs ground together, shuddering, mouth to mouth, breast to breast, legs enmeshed, then lying full length, with the good heavy weight of body upon body, arching, undulating, blind, growing together, force fighting force: to kill? To drive into burning dark of oblivion? To lose identity? Not love, this, quite. But something else rather. A refined hedonism. Hedonism: because of the blind sucking mouthing fingering quest for physical gratification. Refined: because of the desire to stimulate another in return, not being quite only concerned for self alone, but mostly so. An easy end to arguments on the mouth: a warm meeting of mouths, tongues quivering, licking, tasting. An easy substitute for bad slashing with angry hating teeth and nails and voice: the curious musical tempo of hands lifting under breasts, caressing throat, shoulders, knees, thighs. And giving up to the corrosive black whirlpool of mutual necessary destruction. - Once there is the first kiss, then the cycle becomes inevitable. Training, conditioning, make a hunger burn in breasts and secrete fluid in vagina, driving blindly for destruction. What is it but destruction? Some mystic desire to beat to sensual annihilation - to snuff out one’s identity on the identity of the other - a mingling and mangling of identities? A death of one? Or both? A devouring and subordination? No, no. A polarization rather - a balance of two integrities, changing, electrically, one with the other, yet with centers of coolness, like stars.

And there it is: when asked what role I will plan to fill, I say “What do you mean role? I plan not to step into a part on marrying - but to go on living as an intelligent mature human being, growing and learning as I always have. No shift, no radical change in life habits.” Never will there be a circle, signifying me and my operations, confined solely to home, other womenfolk, and community service, enclosed in the larger worldly circle of my mate, who brings home from his periphery of contact with the world the tales only of vicarious experience to me.”
― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

“She had blue skin,
And so did he.
He kept it hid
And so did she.
They searched for blue
Their whole life through,
Then passed right by-
And never knew.”
― Shel Silverstein, Every Thing on It

“In his forty-third year William Stoner learned what others, much younger, had learned before him: that the person one loves at first is not the person one loves at last, and that love is not an end but a process through which one person attempts to know another.”
― John Williams, Stoner