Meggie

“If you think, then you are. And if you stop thinking, only for a hundredth of a second, then you aren't. You don't exist. You're gone. You're annihilated, at least until your brain starts working again, which you can't be sure it will do. I wish I could describe what it's like. I can't, though. Words are. . .just words. They're ideas, words, not feelings. You can have the word 'fear' in your mind, but that doesn't mean you're afraid, does it? Terror, panic - they don't come close to the reality. True terror is huge. It's a gigantic world - one that very few people know about. Most human beings are like those fish. They believe the world is the size of an aquarium. They don't know what's outside their own little fishbowl. . .but I know. Maybe it's just as well that I can't give a good description. . .because if I could - if I could paint a clear picture of nonexistence for you - well, for the rest of your life you might keep thinking about it. You might not think of anything else.”
― Russell H. Greenan, Heart of Gold