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Hypnagogia
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So this was the start of it. And already I was anxious for the end. I flinched again. How was that possible? Flinching at my own thoughts in my own head. I didn’t want them to go, I just… didn’t want to engage with this situation myself. I
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As someone with social anxiety and a constant flow of negative self talk running through my head often? This is too relatable.
“What people never understand is that depression isn't about the outside; it's about the inside. Something inside me is wrong. Sure, there are things in my life that make me feel alone, but nothing makes me feel more isolated and terrified than my own voice in my head.”
― My Heart and Other Black Holes
― My Heart and Other Black Holes
“How can I want something so badly but become so paralyzed every time I think about taking it?”
― Eliza and Her Monsters
― Eliza and Her Monsters
“Sometimes it’s hard to feel real. It’s hard to even feel trans because people don’t believe us, but I know who I am.”
― Dear Mothman: A Novel in Verse
― Dear Mothman: A Novel in Verse
“It gives me strength to have somebody to fight for; I can never fight for myself, but, for others, I can kill.”
― The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls
― The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls
“It is so hard to leave—until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.”
― Paper Towns
― Paper Towns
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