Alyssa Laane

“When you have a persistent sense of heartbreak and gutwrench, the physical sensations become intolerable and we will do anything to make those feelings disappear. And that is really the origin of what happens in human pathology. People take drugs to make it disappear, and they cut themselves to make it disappear, and they starve themselves to make it disappear, and they have sex with anyone who comes along to make it disappear and once you have these horrible sensations in your body, you’ll do anything to make it go away.”
― Bessel A. van der Kolk

“You fell in love with a storm. Did you really think you would get out unscathed?”
― Nikita Gill

“There’s nothing.
Nothing to hold on to while the current takes me.
Whatever I might have had until today, I’ve lost.
I feel my love for her, swelling; bloating into something that’s about to explode, like an abscess that’s been allowed to rot for too long, but the pain drowns it so completely I know I’m never coming back out. This feeling, that you’re choking and that your body is underwater, immersed in the ocean, a dense flood that overpowers your breathing abilities, and your will to survive gets drowned right along with it. And as I’m drowning I see her face and hear her voice—and it doesn’t give me hope, it terrifies me. I’m terrified because I know she’s going to be the death of me. I’m terrified because I know I won’t be able to cope. I’m terrified because the darkness is the only true friend I’ve ever had and if it wants to embrace me I don’t have the power to make it stop.”
― Kady Hunt, Seven Cuts

“There’s still this thing that happens after you break up with
someone. It barely takes any time to work. All you have to do
is continue with your life, and then when you find yourself in a
room with her again it’s as if you’re a different person. Maybe
your posture is a little more confident. Maybe your laughter is
louder. You’re wearing perfume she’s never smelled before and
you have a new way of pinning back your hair. You don’t even
have to say anything because your presence alone is enough to
say Look at who I am without you.”
― Nina LaCour, Everything Leads to You