Ila

“The excuses became an armor that pushed away he pain, but painful feelings do not relent even when faced with brute force. They linger in the ether and visit you, whether you are ready or not to confront them. Denial masquerades as an accomplice to the expansiveness of numbness, but in fact it endeavors to break us into shards of our truth. By drawing enemy lines, denial is a refusal of our entireties. Denial is fragmentation; denial is desperate prayer.”
― Mimi Zhu, Be Not Afraid of Love: Lessons on Fear, Intimacy, and Connection

“Men throw huge shadows on the lawn, don't they? Then, all their lives, they try to run to fit the shadows. But the shadow are always longer. Only at noon can a man fit in his own shoes, his own best suit, for a few brief minutes.
But we're in a new age where we can think up a Big Idea and run it around in a machine. That makes the machine more than a machine, doesn't it?”
― Ray Bradbury, I Sing the Body Electric! & Other Stories

“You'll definitely get something out of your system. Maybe you'll cry, or maybe you'll come. How can a teaspoon or two of bodily build make such a big difference? It makes no sense, I know. But it's super important. It's insane how important it is. So insane that sometimes I can't keep from laughing".”
― Mieko Kawakami, All the Lovers in the Night

“What I'm saying is, the pain is in the aftermath, more than it is the break.”
― Julia Armfield, Our Wives Under the Sea