Tanu ghosh

“The pain makes you so numb,
At times, you feel as if you are hallucinating,
Seeing things happen to you as if it were happening to someone else like an " out of body experience".

How could life be so cruel?

Is this what perseverance and enduring pain is all about;I ask myself ?
Somehow I have made myself believe that
" jumping off the cliff " or
" drowning myself "
would do nothing to ease this "pain " ! this " numbness "!
Seeing my loved one suffer after I am "gone" , I guess ,will make me more and more anxious ;
Angry "ghosts " don't make good " providers" , I assume.
So I carry on ..
I carry on every day .
It's a weight I have ...
It makes my heart sink to the bottomless pit ,
But
Then again,
a man like me; a giver & a man with no choice has " literally" no choice" but to " live with this hollowed numb"‎!”
― BinYamin Gulzar

“The March of death.
To me it seems that , we have completely been blinded by the toxic love for evil , that totally incapacitated our soul ,
The virtues of fake nationalism ,
are totally impotent to understand ,
the fact that if patriotism was based on hate ,
As we are fed to consume “it” ,
In news bulletin is annoying,
Vulgar and grotesque .

Absurdity”
― BinYamin Gulzar

“Sitting alone in the alley of dark submissive loneliness.
Retrospecting on the things that were left unsaid , only if they weren't !
The monsters within my head grow stronger everyday ,
Fighting them everyday ,
I wonder , does it make me an unsung hero , no one knows about ! ?
May be I will die like a unknown martyer within my own hallucinations
Or may be perhaps I may be a sacrificial lamb .

Happiness is but a dream I cherish most ,
I need peace , I have none .
Set me free , I have been broken
I want to breath ., my last !
I want to be free at last !”
― BinYamin Gulzar

“Tell me your dark secrets and I shall tell you mine, and in the darkest part of our existence , our souls will find their salvation in each other!”
― BinYamin Gulzar