Kitten Foxx

“Now I am keeping windowsill plants just to prove to myself that things can still grow out of neglect. And I understand the reasons she left.
It is hard to keep trying to fix something convinced it is not broken. It is hard to love a heart that is not always open.”
― Trista Mateer, Honeybee

“I'm in a constant battle with reality and pretend
with who I am, who I want to be,
and who I wish I could be
with picking up the pieces, painting portraits of something strong, something whole,
something to be proud of
and shattering crystal vases on wooden floors
while smiling, without blinking
with seeing just how far I can run away from myself
without forgetting myself”
― Madisen Kuhn, Please Don't Go Before I Get Better

“I wanted a reminder that things can still grow out of emptiness.
I wanted a reminder that things can still grow in this small, yellow room even though you’re not in it.
And I keep buying books even though nothing holds my attention anymore.
I have them stacked up to the ceiling. I have them stacked up to the moon.
I broke a bottle of red nail polish all over the kitchen floor, but it almost all came up with just a little remover. It looked like cleaning up after a crime scene. It felt like cleaning up after you left me.
Just takes a little elbow grease. Just takes a little time.”
― Trista Mateer, Honeybee

“I think maybe parts of me are stuck to her, dug into her side like tree roots: ruthlessly. But just because you grow together doesn’t mean you’re meant to stay.”
― Trista Mateer, Honeybee