Lea Hernandez

“Was she never divided, not even for a moment, between the parts of herself that she loved and the parts that scared her?”
― Lillian Fishman, Acts of Service

“But you said you didn’t love out father. How can you have faith in him if you didn’t love him?”
“Maybe that’s the reason.” Adam said slowly, feeling his way. “Maybe if I had loved him I would have been jealous of him. You were. Maybe – maybe love makes you suspicious and doubting. Is it true that when you love a woman you are never sure – never sure of her because you aren’t sure of yourself? I can see pretty clearly. I can see how you loved him and what it did to you. I did not love him. Maybe he loved me. He tested and hurt me and punished me and finally he sent me out like a sacrifice, maybe to make up for something. But he did not love you, and so he had faith in you. Maybe – why, maybe it’s a kind of reverse.”
― John Steinbeck

“I remember the feeling that she meant: the sense that men were alien, that if I were to foster any intimacy with a man it would be both despite and because of the fact that I could only be a body to him. And I had been right to be afraid. How can a body be safe when it's only a body? How can we expect that no stranger will be tempted to torch an empty house?”
― Lillian Fishman, Acts of Service

“We love what disturbs us if it chooses us and tells us how we matter”
― Lillian Fishman, Acts of Service