J. Carpenter

“Alcoholism


Also known as Alcohol Dependence Syndrome may modify and influence characteristics of one's behavior producing
a. momentary emotional enhancement, and
b. reduction to anxiety level's that individuals suffering from mood or anxiety disorders may crave. Thus, perpetuating patterns of self- destructive behavior.
Causes of Alcoholism include Depression, Anxiety Disorder, PTSD, Genetic Predisposition, and an Overactive Prefrontal Cortex.
Other Causes may include life turmoil, loss, shitty parents, females, loneliness, females, and…
a. self-awareness of subtle but gradual decay within one’s soul, conditioned by culture, society, and an overstimulated sociological pressure prompted into a state of constant consuming, and
b. realizing that we are just manifested consciousness endowed with temporary control of a meat-slop of atoms flying on a giant rock in infinite space.
Excessive Drinking may cause dizziness, shaking, aggression, sexualized compulsive behavior, vomiting, headaches, slurred speech, and…
looking at your bloody fist after a blackout; then looking at your friend on the floor holding the side of his jaw; then watching your friend get up. walk out and slam the front door, shouting, “Fuck you!”
Benefits of Alcohol include

forgetting.”
― J. Carpenter

“Peace is white sun reflections on summer pear trees, and ocean mist droplets defying gravity by air currents. Peace is caffeinated goodbye-kissing and velvet smiles laced with credence. Trumpet horns sound off the coming of Blue Jays, Swallows and Chickadee’s. And there is no sadness echoing within or without. There is a taste of God in every grass blade and car horn raging in the city. The stop lights are all green, and there are children playing in the fountains. A dog laps my hand, and finally—I remembered what it’s all about.”
― J. Carpenter, You, Me & The End of The World: Poetry Anthology

“It is these uncontrollable circumstances that pop up like weeds in the human soul. The effects of inner conflict are comparable to the childhood dizziness of a spinning game. It's only when you step out of the game for a moment, you are able to gain control and clarity.”
― J. Carpenter

“I feel like three million years of anguish crystalized.
Five past lives of bad karma brought me here.
But— I guess you have to be buried alive
Like hot carbon atoms pulverized
To become a paragon of virtuous love-wonder.
Look at this shiny rock now.
I’m a diamond, bitches”
― J. Carpenter , You, Me & The End of The World: Poetry Anthology