Petek Dindar

“If you have always been criticised, from before you can remember, it becomes more or less impossible to locate yourself in the time or space before the criticism was made: to believe, in other words, that you yourself exist.”
― Rachel Cusk, Second Place

“Bir dönem her şeyin yolunda gittiğine neredeyse inanacak oldum.
Ama öyle şeyler oluyordu ki, ben istediğim baha­neyi uydurayım, istediğim çiçeği ekeyim, balkonu botanik parkına çevireyim, canım evim diye duvarlara falan sarılayım, kapıyı pencereyi dışarının çirkinliğine istediğim kadar sıkı sıkı kapatayım, dışarıda fokur fokur kaynayan cinnet açık unuttuğum bir aralık bulup içeri süzülüyor, beni ağılı bir duman gibi sinsi sinsi ze­hirliyordu.”
― Melisa Kesmez, Nohut Oda

“Shame, in other words, is conservative in the fullest sense; it is there to conserve our privacy, to conserve ourselves as we would prefer to be seen; to conserve our belief that we can conceal ourselves. Because shame is what is felt when we fail to perform well enough (think of potential humiliation of the stand-up comic). If shame is always possible, performance is everything. Our capacity for shame is a horrifying reminder of what we believe our preferred self really is - and that there is one - however much of a strain it may be to sustain it.”
― Adam Phillips, Attention Seeking

“Fear is a habit like any other, and habits kill what is essential in ourselves.”
― Rachel Cusk, Second Place