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“They should make a word for the mix of pride and envy you get when someone you love is really good at a thing. It’s like you want them to win so badly it feels personal. But also the thought of them winning makes you almost sick with longing.”
― Becky Albertalli, Kate in Waiting

“The master was an old Turtle--we used to call him Tortoise--'
Why did you call him Tortoise, if he wasn't one?' Alice asked.
We called him Tortoise because he taught us,' said the Mock Turtle angrily; 'really you are very dull!'
You ought to be ashamed of yourself for asking such a simple question,' added the Gryphon; and then they both sat silent and looked at poor Alice, who felt ready to sink into the earth.”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland & Through the Looking-Glass