Jane

“While I ate out of the King’s dish
To become servant of God was never my wish.
Servant of God has greater chance of sin and sorrow, than a man who serves a king.
For those who serve the greater cause may make the cause serve them,
Still doing right: and striving with political men may make that cause political, not by what they do, but what they are.
I know what yet remains to show you of my history
Will seem to most of you at best futility,
Senseless self-slaughter of a lunatic,
Arrogant passion of a fanatic.
I know that history at times draws
The strangest consequence from the remotest cause.
But for evert evil, every sacrilege,
Crime, wrong, oppression and the axe’s edge, indifference, exploitation, you, and you.
And you, must all be punished. So must you.
I shall no longer act or suffer, to the sword’s end.
Now my good Angel, whom God appoints to be my guardian,
Hover over the swords’ points.”
― TS Eliot