Amanda

“When I go back home I am angrier than ever. I am all at once submerged in every body I ever was, all the failed attempts at being a certain kind of person. My old scales are there, my old photographs, the skin across my face taut with hunger, my eyes bright and wild with it, very beautiful, nobody could deny.”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“Instead, what exists are moments like this one:...
'What do you want to eat?' my mother asked.
'Nothing,' I said, 'I'm just going to have chewing gum after school from now on.'
'Good girl,' she said, and I remember feeling a sad, deep worry that she had been hating me all along for the eating I was doing before, that she had been waiting for me to give it up.”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“There is no truce to be made with my body; if I make one, I know it will only be negated by a new enemy in time. What is the point?”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“This is part of the horror of being hurt generically. Your experiences are so common that they become impossible to speak about in an interesting way.”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation