Amanda

“I had suffered, and I had made the suffering into something I could consider good. I made it so that suffering was a kind of work.”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“When I come home now, still, I am self-conscious and defensive before her. I hate that she can see what weight I have gained. I hate to listen to what she is or isn't eating any more, what she is doing at the gym. I hate that hearing those things feels like a dare to me, or an invitation to raise the stakes. I hate that I have never found an appropriate response that all I can do is defensively eat nothing, in a rage, or eat everything, showing her that I am past that, I have transcended her petty concerns, I am mind, not body, I am better than her.”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“This is part of the horror of being hurt generically. Your experiences are so common that they become impossible to speak about in an interesting way.”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“I would have carved his name all over if I could have, if I thought it would make him happy.”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation