Shana

“The whole goddamn world is too much. It's all too loud. Why is it so much louder for me than anyone else? Doesn't anyone hear the screaming all the time?

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"It feels like someone is shouting at me all the time, all these lies that I know are lies but I'm so terrified of what will happen if I don't listen, and then it just gets louder and louder so that I can't hear anything else over it all and I can't make them stop.”
― Mackenzi Lee, The Nobleman's Guide to Scandal and Shipwrecks

“Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don’t know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.”
― Ramani Durvasula, Should I Stay or Should I Go?: Surviving a Relationship with a Narcissist

“It's not the moment the world splits in two, it's all the days after, trying to live a cleaved life and pretend you never knew it whole and don't feel the space of that missing piece that can never be repaired or replaced. Even the best facsimiles fall short.”
― Mackenzi Lee, The Nobleman's Guide to Scandal and Shipwrecks

“I wish I were a different man. I wish I were the sort to argue, to fight, to stand my ground and tell him off for being needlessly cruel. The sort of man who could pull his socks up, or better yet, the sort whose socks never slipped. Who was always well pressed and unruffled and sure of his own stride, and did not waste so much time with this endless self-contemplation. I wish I was any kind of man instead of the kind I am.

But I'm me, so I turn and start to walk away from him.”
― Mackenzi Lee, The Nobleman's Guide to Scandal and Shipwrecks