Praniya

“Never quite understand what I was meant to settle for instead. That was the way it was. You could never ask why. You have to work it out in between the gaps, in the silence, between each careful mouthful of chewing Sunday dinner or run your finger tips along the wall paper and underneath the aging drawn liner in the bedrooms.

Like that time I introduced her to Alfie, "Well that's fine Ena, if that's who you settle for" she said in the kitchen on the morning of my wedding with a faint scent of betrayal. Through I could never understand how I could I have disappointment her so much if I never was shown another way.”
― Mona Arshi, Somebody Loves You

“Love to him would have felt more like the pain of longing rather than joying union”
― Philippa Perry, The Book You Wish Your Parents Had Read [and Your Children Will Be Glad That You Did]

“Your mother died out of loneliness,” Granny would always repeat, claiming it was because she had never remarried after my father. But I think it was despair that killed her. Having done only things she didn’t believe in, she must have been dead inside for years before her body finally gave up too.”
― Tomasz Jedrowski, Swimming in the Dark

“But it's there. Dread. Every day is an opportunity to fuck up. Every decision, every meeting, every report. There's no success, only the temporary aversion of failure. Dread. From the buzz and jingle of my alarm until I finally get back to sleep. Dread.”
― Natasha Brown, Assembly