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“and I was sad for him that he had had a child at all if it meant his happiness was tied to mine always. I was sad I wasn’t able to learn to be happier, more regular and peaceful, because it meant he would never have that peace for himself, which he of all people deserved and had waited for.”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“Maybe I had even chosen him because of it, because he so resisted loving me.
But it wouldn’t have mattered in the end.
Whatever he offered me would never have sufficed. I had chosen someone who was by nature indifferent, and made it my project to make him love me.”
― Megan Nolan

“One of the saddest things to feel is that nothing in the world is new, that you have exhausted all your interactions with it. When I feel that way I wake each day into the already-dusky afternoon with deep regret that nothing has happened overnight to change me. I wake so late because although I can’t stand to be conscious, I can’t stand to try to sleep either. To lie down in the dark and think, for even a moment, seems an unspeakable prospect”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“He could move so far away from me in a moment. I envied him his ability to remove himself.”
― Megan Nolan