Status Updates From Break It Down

She decides to call several people. She tells herself she has to talk to
some people. She is worried, and then she is angry at herself for worrying,
for always thinking about herself and for always looking at the world so
darkly. But she doesn’t know how to stop.

She thinks about how her smartness doesn’t
seem to count for much anymore, the way it used to. Her smartness has
counted for less and less as she has grown older.

One day she sees an apartment she is willing to take. It is not very pretty,
but she is ready to take it because she wants to have a home again, she
wants to be bound to this city by a lease, she doesn’t want to go on feeling
the way she does, loose in the world, the only one without any place.