Status Updates From The Lover's Dictionary

vagary, n.
The mistake is thinking there can be an antidote to the uncertainty.

ubiquitous, adj.
When it’s going well, the fact of it is everywhere. It’s there in the song that shuffles into your ears. It’s there in the book you’re reading. It’s there as you open the door. As you stare off on the subway, it’s what you’re looking at. ... It lines your pockets. It’s the temperature.
The hitch, of course, is that when it’s going badly, it’s in all the same places.
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tenet, n.
At the end of the French movie, the lover sings,” love me less, but love me for a long time.”

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recant, v.
I want to take back at least half of the “I love you”s because I didn’t mean them as much as the other ones. … I want to take back the secrets I told you so I can decide now whether to tell them to you again. … I want to take back at least half the “I love you”s because it feels safer that way.

rapprochement, n.
I remember my grandmother saying, “You have to let the cake cool before you frost it.“

ineffable, adj.
These words will ultimately end up being the barest of reflections, devoid of the sensations words cannot convey. Trying to write about love is ultimately like trying to have a dictionary represent life. No matter how many words there are, there will never be enough.

healthy, adj.
There are times when I’m alone that I think, this is it. This is actually the natural state. All I need are my thoughts…my ability to go or do whatever I want to go or do. I am myself, and that is the point. Pairing is a social construction. It is by no means necessary for everyone... Maybe I’m better like this.. I could live my life in my own world, and then simply leave it when it’s time to go

exacerbate, v.
I believe your exact words were: “You’re getting too emotional.”

candid, adj.
“Most times when I’m having sex, I’d rather be reading.”
This was, I admit, a strange thing to say on a second date. I guess I was just giving you warning.
“Most times when I’m reading,” you said, “I’d rather be having sex.”

belittle, v.
No, I don’t listen to the weather in the morning. No, I don’t keep track of what I spend. No, it hadn’t occurred to me that the Q train would’ve been much faster. But every time you give me that look, it doesn’t make me want to live up to your standards.
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autonomy, n.
“I want my books to have their own shelves,” you said, and that’s how I knew it would be ok to live together.
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arduous, adj.
Sometimes during sex, I wish there was a button on the small of your back that I could press and cause you to be done with it already.

ardent, adj. (continued)

Sometimes desire is air; sometimes desire is liquid. And every now and then, when everything else is air and liquid, desire solidifies, and the body is the magnet that draws its weight.

ardent, adj.
It was after sex, when there was still heat and mostly breathing, when there was still touch and mostly thought… it was as if the whole world could be reduced to the sound of a single string being played, and the only thing that sound could make me think of was you.