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“I can’t help it. I laugh. “Fine. Your handwriting is incredibly tidy. There’s your compliment—take it and go.”

He takes out his phone and types a note.

“Excellent,” he says, looking up. “So far this year, I’ve got ‘not insignificant’ and ‘tidy handwriting’.” He locks his phone and slides it back into his pocket. “You’re really sweeping me off my feet, Theodora.”

“You’re normally much more subtle than this when you’re fishing for compliments,” I point out with a mocking smile. “Feeling a bit desperate?”

“I’m always desperate for a compliment from you, Theodora.” His smile is easy and guileful. “They are the rarest of treasures. How could I not want to collect them?”

“The book of Theodora sits in the middle of my heart. It’s not going anywhere, and I’m very patient. I’m going to learn its language, and I’m going to decipher its code. I’m going to read every page until I know the text better than I know myself, until every word of it is inscribed on every part of me.”

“You’re welcome, and you’ll always be, I want to say. I’ll pick up every highlighter and pen you drop. I’ll hold every door open and carry all your books. Just ask me, Theodora, and I’ll do it.”

“Sometimes, I wonder if I’m broken, if there’s something wrong with me. Everyone around me is bursting with emotions: anger, frustration, joy, sadness, triumph, love, hatred. I feel none of those things. Mostly, I feel tired and numb. Sometimes, I sense the emotions, but not directly, not fully. I sense them like ghosts.”

“It’s a system designed to keep us forever competing but never victorious. But it’s not a system that’s clever enough to work on us.Because in the cold hostility of our home life, Zahara and I have an alliance forged in marble and gold.I have her back, and she has mine. This is something I know will never change.”

“I’m patient, though. Like two celestial bodies bound by the same gravity, Theodora and I can never quite escape one another.Of that, I’m certain.”

“She’s like Snow White in the glass coffin; I can see her quite clearly but never reach her. Like Snow White with the bite of poisoned apple in her throat, Theodora seems to be suspended in some dormant state, waiting to wake up.”

“They are all like you, but you are not like them. Men have more freedom in this world—it is not fair, and if you had been lucky enough to be born a boy, you would not have to endure this injustice. If you were born a boy, I would not have needed to speak of this with you. Because boys—men—cannot be ruined in the way women can. Do you understand?”

i hate her dad omfg

“Theodora Dorokhova. Even her name is special. I repeat it in my mind after she says it. When I’m alone later, I’m going to say it out loud, the way I do when I’m reading a book and I find a particularly satisfying sentence. Too satisfying to keep in my head, so I have to speak it, so I can taste the words and feel their weight and texture on my tongue.”

“Theodora Dorokhova is going to be the most important person I meet in Spearcrest. Everything about her is delicate and fragile, like a porcelain doll. Her eyes are big and vividly blue. She’s not beautiful yet, she’s barely even pretty, but she’s going to be.She’s going to be one of the most beautiful girls in the world.”

“My father’s anger spins a web of fear around me, a mantle I can never shake off. It makes talking in front of him difficult, it makes my stomach squirm with nausea when he’s near, and it fills my sleep with dark nightmares.”

“I must accept that God did not give me a son,” my father would say. “But I refuse to accept that God would give me such a weak child.”

Not a son, strong and bold and proud. But a scared, weak little girl who can hardly bring herself to speak without weeping.

“My voice is locked inside my chest, and my father holds the key.”

oh this is gonna be sad

WHY ARE ELEVEN YEAR OLDS TALKING ABOUT ANIMAL FARM BRO THIS IS CORNY

“my father is russian and idk what he does for work but he’s powerful and we are loaded”
yea wrap it up bro

Oh my god i just read his first "I love you" to her 😢😢😢😢😢 it's so beautiful and sudden I'm fuxking crying now 😢😢😢😢 I love how angsty it is that they can't have eachother but he still loves her this is so beautiful sad and sweet

No idea how I am gonna feel about this one, my friend is forcing me to read this.

I mean i usually just ask my friends to not kiss my crush but you do you i guess…?