Status Updates From Lo squalificato

"it was rather that I had a strangulating fear of that cataclysmic change in the atmosphere the instant the flow of a conversation flagged, and even when I knew that it would later turn to my disadvantage, I frequently felt obliged to add, almost inadvertently, my word of embellishment, out of a desire to please born of my usual desperate mania for service." right right okay..

I think the recommended audience would be young adults. The book has big words and the message would be hard to understand for most people.

never have i ever felt such a strong feeling of alienation, guilt, and sense of not beloning, not just japanese society but society as a whole from a main character. excited to read further

And then I lost my library book :')