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"Of the freedom to err, fall, and get up again.

But I hope to understand in order to accept things - the act of surrender will never happen." p61

escrevo por profundamente querer falar. Embora escrever só esteja me dando a grande medida do silêncio.

I know you all over because I have lived you all over. In me life is profound. The early hours find me pale from having lived the night of deep dreams. Though sometimes I float on a visible shoal that has beneath it dark blue almost black depths. That is why I write to you. On a waft of thick seaweed and in the tender wellspring of love.

Before writing to you I perfume myself all over.

Thou who bringest me a damaged memory of things lived that, alas for me, always repeat themselves, in other and different forms. The lived thing scares me as the future scares me. That, like things that have passed, is intangible, mere supposition.

This free air, this wind that strikes me in the soul of the face leaving it troubled in an imitation of an anguished ever-new ecstasy, anew and always, every time the plunge into a bottomless thing into which I fall always ceaselessly falling until I die and achieve at last silence.

Started in January but didn’t get around to actually reading it

A non-exhaustive list of Clarice Lispector's interests:
- Caves
- Painting
- Fruit
- Gardens