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currently bawling my eyes after chapter 43 what the fuckkkk

HE WENT TO THE DANCE ALONE IM GONNA CRY

She laughs, and I kiss her laughing mouth, and my heart is full of that perfect, luminous sound—the sound of Theodora Dorokhova laughing.

BABIES😭😭😭😭 one of the best books i’ve ever read, 10/10 recommend. the mmc is SUCH a sweetheart and so in love with her and its so refreshing to see him love her the way he should.

“Listen to me, Theodora Dorokhova, and listen well. You are not difficult to love—you have never been difficult to love. Whatever happened in your life to make you believe you might be is a tragedy and a betrayal, a crime against truth. Whoever told you or made you believe you’re difficult to love is a liar. You’re not difficult to love.“

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“You’re not lost, Theodora. I’ve found you. I’ve finally found you. And I’ll never lose you again.”

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I’ll wait for your forgiveness as long as you need me to, and if you never forgive me, I’ll live a servant to your hatred. You can punish me every day of my life, Theodora, if you wish to. But you don’t get to hate me from afar. My love is as valid as your hatred. You get to land a thousand blows on me, and I get to return each blow with a caress. So don’t hate me from afar, Theo. Hate me from up close.

“Angry? At me? You?”

“Me—yes, me. Angry at you, yes. You, Theodora Dorokhova, cruel goddess that you are. Do you know the fucking pain you’ve put me through?”

I grab his jaw in my hand. “And what about the pain you put me through?”

“I’d cut my own hand off before I ever used it to hurt you.”

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“I cut it myself. How does it look?”

“It’s your hair, Theodora. How could it be anything but beautiful?” And then I do what saints do when they see their angels. I fall to my knees at her feet and weep.

im bawling😭😭😭😭😭😭

“You’re a creature of love, Theodora, and I want nothing more than to give you that love forever, for as long as we live.”

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“You’re mine?” she asks, wrapping her arms around my neck, tenderness blossoming in her forget-me-not eyes.
“Yes, my darling adversary. I’m yours. For now and forever.”
“Promise?”
“I swear it.”
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them being each other’s firsts means so much to me😭😭 first crush, first kiss, first time. it’s so precious

“I wish I existed in this world as the version of me that exists in your mind,” I tell him.“

“You would,” he says, voice full of tenderness, “if only you saw yourself as I see you.”

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“And as for the value I give her, it’s immeasurable. She is worth dying for, living for. Killing for, probably, or at least poisoning for. She is worth every academic failure, every restless night, all the suffering and yearning and hopelessness. She isn’t worth everything. She is everything.”

“Beauty for me is a girl with cold skin and a faraway gaze, a girl who loves children’s books but rarely laughs. Beauty for me is sage-green silk and soft white wool and forget-me-not eyes. My definition of beauty starts and ends with Theodora.”

“Touch her again and I’ll make sure the rest of your life is short and painful.”

HEHE

“I’d give you anything you’d ask for. If your love demanded my prostration, I’d get on my knees for you, I’d kiss the ground at your feet. I’d do everything you’ve ever thought about in those secret midnight moments and everything you’ve never even dared to imagine. I’d melt all that ice in your skin, Theodora Dorokhova, and replace it with flames.”