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"You're full of information like rock salt and as transparent, nonexistent as crystal. You're a motionless whirlpool. The abyss of light. You're a sound able to take me to incalculable depths: sensations I've never known. You're a commonplace: a bit of grass enlarged a billion times"

"I want to punish myself; I don't want other people punishing me without my permission. These people are eternally injuring me and nothing can repair those injuries. I'm a person like they are, and I am separate and inviolable (...) I've remade the outside prison inside me because there's no difference between outside and inside my mind: they release me from prison and I'm still in prison".

I've known this is would be one of my favorite books since I started it in 2022, but I've never been able to go further than chapter 3 for 4 years: "I imagine I'm flying through the night, twirling screaming yelling, I'm the wind; no one can stop me or do anything but love me."

Insane hoe goed dit is