Status Updates From A Girl Is a Half-formed Thing

I keep on getting distracted by class help

Looked it up. Completely missed the part where she gets abused by her uncle, but I do remember reading something about her sitting on a lap. Thought it was odd, should’ve noted it down. Too bad.

So far, slightly confusing since the writing is different. I assume she’s talking to her brother - as in the book is addressed to him. He’s had a surgery, told that he would die but has survived. Her mother’s happy, her father left. Her grandad is over currently and he says he had experienced a miscarriage in his marriage, and that though her son suffered, she should be grateful he’s alive.

I’m so late to this..

“ What if we were young, were small again? And if all this wasn't to be, what'd we be then? What I’d be. What I'd do. “

Not a fan of the prose of this, will have to revisit when I fancy a brain scrambling xoxoox

"And under water lungs grow. Flowing in. Like fire torch. Like air is. That choke of. Eyes and nose and throat. Where uncle did. No. Gone away. Where mother speak. Is deaf my ears. Hold tight to me. I. Will I say? For you to hear? Alone. My name is. Water. All alone. My name. The plunge is faster. The deeper cold is coming in. What's left? What's left behind? What's it? It is. My name for me. My I.

My name is gone."

"For I'm twenty now whenyou were gone. When were you gone?
Rise up the lake above me. Take me where the waters go. I'll take your hand. You'll show. You'll show me all my lands and evil heart as you know it. Brother me. Clean here. Show me all the places of a soul. Where I will calm. And calm now.
Give up dry land.
I'm. Tired. Let it.
Go there.
Struggle down.
We are down. We are down down down."