Status Updates From Last Words from Montmartre

‘If this book should be published, readers can begin anywhere. The only connection between the chapters is the time frame—The two—perfect love both wilted on the vine—The first, because I was still too immature—& the second—because I was overripe—It’s a matter of experience—whether physically or spiritually—I don’t know if I still have what it takes—Chungking Express—Vive L’Amour,—‘bury w/ your own hands’ (Murakami)’

“And I still have the power and freedom to choose whom to devote myself and my soul to, and hopefully always will. I know I'm complicated, but I'm also lucid. I feel things deeply but my desire is like a pure crystal. This is the rarest, most beautiful part of me, that sparkles brightly in the crowd.”
INSANE

“You ask me what I mean by "devotion." Devotion means I give you both my body and soul; it means I place both in your hands, and so in turn I desire your body and soul. And you ask me, "Why you?
Why not someone else?" Because I can never give myself body and soul so completely to anyone else, and I can never desire someone else, body and soul, so completely.”
oof

“You ask me what I mean by "devotion." Devotion means I give you both my body and soul; it means I place both in your hands, and so in turn I desire your body and soul. And you ask me, "Why you?
Why not someone else?" Because I can never give myself body and soul so completely to anyone else, and I can never desire someone else, body and soul, so completely.”
oof

this book is starting to piss me off .. like .. the latter half of letter 3 made me feel so disgusted and annoyed ..

great prose but oh my god its the letters of doom and despair over here

book of despair and misery