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There was stuff I felt I could never bring up, for fear John would say I was undermining his positive thinking. But the play had given me courage.
‘Do you think you are going to die from AIDS?’
‘Probably.’
‘How does it feel?’
‘Scary.’
We spoke of our fears for ourselves and for each other. How long did we think we had? Was he going to die before me? He wanted to know it all.

me when i give my partner aids because i keep cheating on him and i am relieved because he keeps pretending everything is fine because he's fucking dying and i have the GALL to get pissed off that i have to look after him and show him some love.

oh rose.

it's fine. disappointed john is training to be a chriopractor.

not to be homophobic but the contrast between the fluidity of the autobiographical writing in this vs roald dahl.... we push.