Status Updates From Not "Just Friends": Rebuild...

Ugh. Flashbacks about finding out. But it helps to know I'm not alone in the feelings this caused for me.

(...did I mention that having to read this fuckjng sucks?)

Have to read in chunks. The part where the affair becomes tangible hits too hard.

Reading this is so SO hard. But it is also validating, especially when my husband (who is reading this simultaneously) confirms what I had been suspecting for over a year: I wasn't "misunderstanding" the situation.

And being validated in that way, by other people's experiences and my husbands growing inability to hide from our own...I don't feel so alone in it anymore.

Reading this makes me angry because I see what happened so clearly now. But it's also validating to know that I wasn't "overreacting" by being concerned.

Annotating the fuck out of this book is at least helping me work out some feelings while I process my husbands affair.

I hate that my husbands infidelity means now I have to read this book, but at least it's informative and provides useful, science-backed approaches to dealing with this absolute shit of a situation I'm in.