Status Updates From 春の雪 (豊饒の海 #1)

“I hate what's happened to me. I'm lost and I don't know where I'm going. What my heart wants it can't have... All I have left is a flame of longing for times gone by, for what I've lost. Growing old for nothing. I'm left with a terrible emptiness. What can life offer me but bitterness? Alone in my room... alone all through the nights... cut off from the world and from everyone in it by my own despair.”

Loving this (this is the most thought I can give rn 😭 iykyk I guess 😂

“But he realized that he was now slowly admitting one idea that he had never dared entertain before.”

This book has me in a chokehold not going to lie 😩

"Oh, Kiyo, when I'm very happy, my words come tumbling out like the doves they release at a launching, flying up through a burst of confetti. Kiyo, you'll understand soon enough."

“What he was experiencing now was genuine emotion. When he compared this to the various sentiments of love that had once occupied his imagination, he knew that this was something crude and blunt, violent and sinister, an emotion that was altogether far removed from elegance.
It was hardly the stuff that poems are made of. For the first time in his life, he accepted raw ugliness as indeed being part of him.”

Like pure water spurting from a cleft in a rock, words came out of this young man's mouth as the most natural and spontaneous he would ever utter: "However that may be, Satoko is mine."