Status Updates From Waiting for the Fear (New Y...

"Did you have a subconscious, father? It seems to me that that sort of thing wasn't invented until after your time, as if the Ottomans were completely incapable of such a notion. When I picture you in your fez and frock coat I can't quite square that image with the idea of 'existential dread.'"

"I'm here, dear reader. I wonder: Where are you?"

It’s the waiting, the anticipation, that makes fear and paranoia so powerful against our minds. Being stuck in that state of bubbling for fear so long, even when there is nothing in reality to worry about, causes us to go insane. The idea of our fear consumes us and uses us as a vehicle through which to spread itself.

"I! I shouted, as loudly as I could. Then I repeated my name several times. I, the victim of a secret sect, am withering away like a houseplant. I, who don't know how to look after a houseplant, can't even look after myself. Accused of wanting solitude, I've been condemned to it. I oppose this verdict with all my strength. I can't take the loneliness anymore, I want to be among people."

"Despite her fear, she got closer; her entire life, whatever she did she did in spite of her fear, otherwise she'd have just up and vanished a long time ago."

"I could get so obsessed over something that the very number of my thoughts decreased..."

"In the morning I woke up happy. Sleep allowed me to spend one quarter of my day not counting the minutes."

Pure compulsion, in every character.

this book is wild lol. loving how he’s playing w structure and narration