Status Updates From Adaptive Prepping: How to A...

no brokers exist

this has all been a creative writing exercise

changing subjects

No, I was correct

I'm half surprised he didn't get his assistant, the hot blonde assistant, to do it for him

or director or whatever the official title is

I'm going back over his wording and I completely misread it

like, different words

"Here you go."

by itself

I feel crazy right now

that is what pushed me over the edge

now I don't see that wording

This is for the new broker

I was the one who wrote the emails

I lied through my teeth

It wasn't another family member, it was me who made the decision

...

Maybe I misread, I'm confused

I have dyslexia

I was annoyed by the word choice

Child actor, that's abuse

postpartum depression, losing custody of her child, and I think one of her siblings died?

Headlines said she struggled with an addiction to opioids, her brother had an addiction to heroin.

I'm shook by Hayden Panettiere dying, at only 36

Everyone is saying drinking

I'm getting heroin vibes

Like the guy from Glee who died of an overdose

I wish the neighbors the best

Just leave us alone

Protector of his family

From our dogs

Nothing has happened

It's his dog getting into our yard

That might be a real reason to reinforce his fence - he has a livestock guardian dog in a smallish fenced in backyard

there is no chance of the dogs breaking through the fence into the other neighbor's yard (the guy beside my house)

he was out there early this morning, I could hear him, it sounded like he might be reinforcing his fence

that would make him feel more like a man

transfer his anger from his wife, towards me

i'm the bad guy, the threat

if he can reinforce his fence?

he's being a BIG MAN

I need to do something spiritual for my dad's neighbors

something symbolic maybe

I'm just getting bad energy from both of them

Some crystals with mystical meanings

something

I'm manifesting positive connections with good people

and success in all my endeavors

phew

I enjoyed lunch with the aging alpha today

I'm excited about the syrup

I'm coming up short

I have stuff to do

dead drama is best drama

from 20 years ago

I'm trying to think of someone else to complain about

He can be chill and has a fun personality side to him, but I don't like his male ego

or how I saw him treat his first wife, towards the end of their marriage

bleh

I don't want to think about these people

Afterwards, he would still go over there and chat with both of them

The ultimate 'I've gotten one over you'

I fucked your wife and you have no idea

or he isn't doing anything about it -- or can't

he kept on going inside her house, during the middle of the day

for a time

then leaving

when her husband wasn't home

...

if my hunch is correct?

that's a kind of condescending male ego I can't stand and is deeply unattractive to me

I'm sorry, no one should be reading my status updates

I think he cheated on his first wife with the overweight lady who lives to the right of my dad

I could see him losing respect for his first wife and looking outside his marriage

I don't know what happened between them, none of my business

He was married to his first wife still

I needed the license plate number to my car

It was in my dad's drive way and we were at his office

He seemed irritated that we called to ask if he happened to be home, if he could take a picture of it and send it to us

He was rude and condescending in his tone of voice to my dad

Then he got his wife to do the favor for us -- she was friendly about it

I'll complain about my dad's neighbors again

My dad, at first, seemed disappointed, that I may have burned a bridge with a neighbor

I told him we weren't losing anything

He's never been a helpful or friendly neighbor to me

I get bad vibes from him

It was years ago, I was in the process of moving, and we needed a neighborhood favor

my new cool older cousin would have a wholesome group of bros

talk about things like literature

or politics

or military stuff

he's in his 40s and married, he wouldn't have a group of bros entrenched in hook up culture

who else is in this summer book club?

last summer it felt oddly one sided

like, these guys read these books and chat about it together

and i'm just texting my cousin about how i don't like the book

I wonder how they met

My new cool older cousin has a bunch of random friends - not just military pals

I did randomly look at it around a year ago, after I added my new cool older cousin to my friends list

I noticed when he added a ton of books about how shitty evangelicalism is - the racism and how it's invaded U.S. politics

I know he's part of the "us" that has the summer book club where they read a really big book and whoever is picking them out is picking out dude books

he may be

What he does is he only adds books to his tbr list

he never marks as read or leaves reviews

I'm not stalking his Goodreads

okay

my new cool older cousin and his handsome friend who is a priest

I don't even want to type about him, out of respect

I had a hunch, but he lives in a different state and when I first saw his profile?

I assumed he was already married or in a steady LTR