Status Updates From Ik ben fan

“I am used to hiding parts of myself from my parents, and then hiding parts from my friends, and hiding parts from boys I liked, and hiding parts from the society I belonged to which didn’t like the brown bits of me, and then hiding parts from my family who didn’t like the parts of me that loved techno and staying out and sex and cocks and cunts and booze and freedom. I am used to living inside of shame”

“I want it so no one else can have it. In the not having, it remains absolutely perfect, in my imagination it would fulfil all my needs, I would never need anyone again. I want it so that in the luxury of having it, I can ruin its perfection and then reject it when I am sure it means nothing. I want to succeed where all the other women failed, and it is not so much to win him as it is to defeat everyone else.”
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“ I want to be eagerly awaited. I want to be superficially humble about my incredible success, I want to wear it carelessly,”

The chapter gimme, unfortunately made me feel so seen

so we are basically after the girl that we are obsessed with? you just want human connection. someone who knows what it feels like to be humiliated by someone - not really getting everything.

I'm tired girl

This is a great example of stream of consciousness in a book honestly

JK she deserves everything she gets for pressuring that girl!

I've met a girl like her! Like please stand up that man don't want you