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"Sometimes we have these moments in life that no matter how long ago, we remember so vividly.. as if it just happened. Maybe this is our minds way of taking a picture."

"Wherever my eyes wander, I am forever finding you, in all the little things you used to love to do."

"I find you on those backroads that we used to love to drive." <3

"On our darkest day of grief, we find ourselves facing a void that can never be filled. Do we even want it to be? That void in your heart is reserved for the one that you lost and that's okay. It is the only space where they can forever stay."

"I hate the month of May and that feeling I get when spring approaches. The flowers start to bloom. The sun starts to stay and while the world around me sings. I still mourn the loss that May brought to me."

This one hurt my feelings. I lost my mom April 30, 2025. The last day of April. My mom loved spring. My mom loved gardening. I can't believe she passed before her favorite season.

"I always find myself wishing for one more moment with you. One more chance to tell you just how much I love you. One more laugh at all the things that only we thought were funny. And it hurts all over again."

The things I would do to sit on the porch with my mom and hear her laugh at my jokes, her own jokes, or even cheesy ass facebook posts.

"And I wonder if it will always feel as if it were just yesterday no matter how many years go by."

Apart of me hopes so, but then apart of me doesn't.

"I think that when it is all said and done, after we lay them to rest and the people start to leave, the flowers start to wilt and the sympathy cards stop coming, the check ins lessen and the world just keeps on turning... It's like they die all over again and I think a piece of us dies with them." 100%. It feels like how can their world be righted again when mine has been so uprooted now.

"My heart is banking on the fact that I will see you again... I have to."

I want to believe there is heaven so bad and that I'll see my mom again, but the logical side of my brain is always battling me and putting my back into the realm of reality.

"I will always miss you more than I did yesterday, but never more than I will tomorrow, for my life is consumed by the thought that we should have had so much more time together and I will never go a day without you on my mind."

"I will never be guilted into missing my loved one any less just because so much time has gone by. And I will never, ever stop talking about them just because people that I should be 'over it by now.'"

"I always find myself thinking of the little moments. the laughter. the love. when just being together was enough. those moments and memories are all I have left of you."

"They say that grief is the price we pay for love, but what they don't tell you is that sometimes the cost is so high that we never truly recover."

"When we have to say goodbye to someone we love, we aren't just saying goodbye to them. We are saying goodbye to our future lives that we never imagined them not being a part of."

"We replay our last words over and over again. Always wishing for just one more chance to hear their voice and I don't think that the longing to speak to them, just one more time, ever truly goes away."

I wish I knew what my last words to my mom were. I know what my last text was. I wish I had come around more. I wish I had given her more grace.

"Grief is wanting to keep everything that was ever theirs because sometimes we feel that is all we have left of them."

"I made a wish today. A wish that you are free of pain and at peace. A wish that you would visit me in my dreams. A wish that you somehow know how much I love and miss you. Today, I wished for you."

I hope my mom knows how loved and missed she is. I would do anything to tell her.