Status Updates From Near Miss

“I just don’t date.”
“Too committed to saving lives?”
Trying to save my own, I think.
But I don’t tell him that, I just shrug again and say, “Something like that.”

She’s still looking at me, like she loves me, but it’s not the same.
My mother looks at Sarah like she’s the most precious thing in the world to her. A shooting star she saw in the sky.
She looks at Nathaniel with this sort of understated reverence.
She looks at me like I’ve done her a sort of favour. She’s thankful for me, but she doesn’t really understand my value.

He grins, dimple illuminating in his cheek. “Sexy.”
It’s a beautiful smile, and it’s a beautiful dimple.

i am loving this so much and also kind of want to cry