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had a dream where im an old mans farmhand but he’s old and eventually on his deathbed. i sit by him and watch him die. he passes down philosophies to me that deeply impact me. eventually i watch him die (before he dies he asks me where i think we go after death) and i feel real pain. every time someone brings him up i cry and feel real deep sadness and grief in my chest, something ive never experienced in a dream.