Status Updates From The Last Time We Say Goodbye

"He wasn't the best looking baby, my brother. I looked at him. He looked at me. Then he went crossed eyed. 'He's not cute' is what I famously said, clearly disappointed. 'I thought he was going to be cute' "-Chapter 19 Page 212

"They're bad, and it feels like they're getting worse, more graphic in nature, but I don't want to stop having them. In some morbid way, I like having them. Because at least then I get to see Ty. I get to talk to him, sometimes. At least, when I'm there, when Ty is dying in whatever way he's dying, I'm with him. I'm hanging onto him. I'm asking him not to go."- Chapter 14 Page 155

"The room goes dark and blurry, like an impressionist painting, colors but no distinct lines" -Chapter 9 page 98

“ “i miss you, i want to say. Its on the tip of my tongue, but i think, if i call attention to the fact that this is a dream, then I’ll wake up”-chapter 9 page 94

"Sometimes I miss being kissed. It seems like such a small thing, a trivial thing, my lips meeting his, but sometimes, like tonight, I lie in bed unsleeping and stare up at the ceiling and remember what it felt like"-Chapter 8 Page 82

"I never liked Antonia. He was the kind of guy that always wanted to make out with Beaker, but never seemed to want to talk to her. He was unworthy"- Chapter 7 Page 77

" 'I, for instance, have been married to the same man for thirty-two years. And, in all that time, I haven't felt "in love" with him every day, not in the way love is described in romantic comedies and romance novels, but I have loved him. Love is a choice I've made. A verb. And that, because I believe in it, because I act on it, is real. Love is a very real thing to me' " -Chapter 7 Page 73

" ' I find that love is a concept much like bravery, Miss Riggs.' "-Chapter 7 Page 73

" 'In my experience, love doesn't bring happiness and stability. But believing in love can cause a substantial amount of harm' " -Chapter 7 page 73

"I love you as the plant that never blooms but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers"-Chapter 8 Page 63

“Sorry mom, but i was below empty” -chapter 5 page 46

“I want to see him again even if it means I’m crazy. Maybe thats why i couldnt tell dave, or why i cant write it down, because then theyll very definitely make me take the pilla and what happened the other night with the phone wont happen again, and ill never see Ty, not ever, for as long as i live, and i dont believe in an afterlife so i wont get to see him them, either. -chapter 5 page 45

“I can’t be helped, i think. There is no magic spell that will bring Ty back. Theres nothing anybody can do” - chapter 4 page 39

“ ‘you dont have to go through this by yourself,’ Dave says. ‘Try to let people in. That’s the only way they can help you’ “-chapter 4 Page 39

“And I laughed at poor Charlie, and it felt weird to laugh, because Ty had been dead for two weeks then”- Chapter 4 page 33

“I’ll never see him again. The thought brings back the hole in my chest.”-chapter 2 page 11

“That every one of them will feel like me eventually. Because someone they love will die. It’s one if life’s cruel certainties” - Chapter 2 Page 10