Status Updates From Thoughts Be Bloody

I KNOW I'm almost done but the unreality/dissociation(?) of these last chapters is messing with my head so bad that I cannot bring myself to keep going. This is both a good thing for realism and a terrible thing for the mentally ill (me).

I got what I wanted at what cost.

I'm emotionally distraught and I fear I am siding with the unreliable narrator rather than believing in nuance.

I miss Lia, I'm glad we are getting Hamlett Horatio time but I miss Lia.... Where is she.... Where does she keep going....

Truth or Dare is in fact a queer right of passage but specifically in small group settings at far too old an age to be playing such a childish game.

Oh Hamlett you are so bipolar coded and I cannot tell if this was intentional or not but I love it either way.

Horatio and Hamlett are so Ape Dos Mil by Glassjaw to me.

The fact that this books is making me want to own a physical copy to making annotations and also read Hamlet in order to do a comparison... This is truly devastating news.

I love subtle hints for polyamory actually building towards it instead of weird love triangles. I love polyamory in fiction so bad.

Oh Bithersea we're really in for it now, aren't we?

Perfectly normal and acceptable to describe killing someone and then say you can't picture it. I feel like you just did!

i want to be free from this book... im sorry

It's 2 am, and I'm done !!!

I'm settled in bed, the kitties are fed, it's a quarter to 12, and there is 17% left to read. Which I could leave for tomorrow, but I simply can't sleep before finding out how this ends 😩


I WILL finish this book tonight!! TRUST!!!

I'm speechless.

My heart and head hurts. What the actual fuck.
Am I going to finish this book, or will it finish me? I think I know the answer.

"Why is he showing me his girlfriend reaching his hand out to me to dance" you're being invited to the polycule horatio. he's dropping hints about the polycule horatio.

I'm losing my mind!! This book stresses me the fuck out!!! (complimentary)

It's like I'm watching a car crash in slow motion, and being unable to disrupt the inevitability of fatality.

I see no way this could end well, but I'm also only at 62%. Anything could happen, and I mean anything literally, because this universe is insane.

"Three is a magical number, I thought.

Triangles are magical shapes. We could be magic, if we wanted. I wanted."

—I've manifested this 😏💅

"I didn't particularly like the plan, just as I didn't particularly like looking down from so great a height. It made me dizzy. But I thought that was the thing about power. You had to stand at the top, and risk looking down, to have it.

There was always the danger of falling, you just had to believe you wouldn't."

—They are so in over their heads 😩