Status Updates From As Long as You Loathe Me

“She gives an offhanded shrug, but her gaze is narrowed. “I guess nothing’s changed, has it? Because I know if I spend even a minute longer in your presence, I’ll…” She exhales, her eyes closing. “I’ll fall in love with you. Again.”

that is so yjhd bro

“And my soul lit up every time I saw it. Every time I saw him.”

wow

“But I only sense his touch on my skin. My heart doesn’t race. My skin doesn’t heat up. And I feel nothing more than excitement for the party and the bhaang plan. Weird.”

lol

i cannot believe we are having a holi party WITH bhaang yo

“What matters to me is what’s in here”—he puts a hand over his heart—“and not anything anywhere else. And I think that’s a beautiful way to love, is it not?”

it is beautiful.

“Hearing someone else call me their best friend must have stung. I know, because every time I go through Meera’s Instagram and see a new photo of her with Ron and Valeria, my heart breaks a little.”

friendship breakups suck actually

“Does she ever talk about me?”

“Sometimes, when I bring you up in conversation. But otherwise, not really.”

I hold my head up high, although my stomach deflates. “Good. That’s what I was hoping for.”


why is MY stomach deflating

“I want to be liberated. But I do not want to burn to the ground and then rise up. I want to soar without having to fall first.”

ahhah, the dream

“Don’t go there. You did what you had to do to push her away, and it led to you falling in love with the boy you’re going to end up with. It’s okay.”

right because stealing your best friends crush is the way to find happily ever afters 🫠